My scan is set for 6/2 in Charleston at 8:30 in the morning, Brad is able to get off, but at this point we don’t know if he will be allowed to come in or not. As of right now they aren’t allowing anyone to come in with testing, but by June they are unsure. …
Peace
I have a peace that can only come from God, because even as I am sitting down to write this my mind is trying to steer me to the “bad” things. It’s a surreal feeling to have peace with a progressive fatal disease, but I do and my mind is having a hard time comprehending …
Head and heart meet!
Scan update: the test can’t be done here, so I have to go to Charleston, which just brings a bunch of other issues, the boys, the drive, and Brad can’t take days off during the week they are short staffed and not hiring right now. But I am thankful for Dr. Judge that answers emails …
Let it go
I write because if I speak it I let it go, and then satan can no longer play with my mind as much, and right now he is having a field day. My scan was approved with the insurance on Monday, super fast, and yet here I sit still waiting on when it’s going to …
Joy in suffering
I want to be healthy, I don’t want to battle my body each day, I don’t want walking to be a struggle some days because the swelling is so much, I want to live to see my boys grow, I want to be the way to usher them into adulthood, I want to see them …
ARE YOU THERE?
I feel like I am riding waves, one day I am ok, and the next I feel like I am being slammed into the ground, today was definitely a ground slamming day. I am a social person, and this being alone for 2 months is more then my soul can take, its more then my …
My hand is out
Thank you for the prayers, they have helped tremendously. Being isolated with this makes it extra heavy, I love my kids but obviously not something I can sit down and talk to them about, so I shoulder it, and then it gets to big and I crash. I have spent all day in God’s word, …
I am ok!
I’m ok! In this moment I’m ok! Last night we had Bible study and it’s rough letting walls down, if I’m being honest I haven’t fully let anyone 100% in I’m scared what that would look like. but last night I had friends knock some bricks down, and I slept some! Today I am working …
I am listening
I wish this post was full of hope and wisdom, but here I am again another sleepless night. There’s a thunderstorm, my favorite but other then that the house is quite except my thoughts are so loud! I’ve been crying out to God in the thunder that I can hear Him. Yesterday was a bad …
Run to Jesus
” when you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned;the flames will not set you ablaze.”–Isaiah 43:2 This is what I want to keep on repeat the flames will …